Sunday, August 7, 2016


So much lately I hear about crime. I hear about such horrible things people have done. Then I hear the manufactured crimes against LGBT people. Who am I to avoid a a discussion on society? So let us compare lists.

All things must have a beginning.  To the family member who raped and abused me for more than a decade I charge you with child rape, abuse, and cruelty. I will never get my childhood or innocence back. Your crimes will forever haunt me to some degree.

To the hospital I called distraught and on the verge of slicing open my wrists due to what was happening to me, and you ignored me. You never even returned my call or sent a police officer to check on me. A teenager so hurt and wounded they reached out in distress and you did nothing. I charge you with criminal neglect.

To the various clergy in my life who repeatedly informed me I was going to Hell and told me so many nasty things of what I was, simply for existing, I charge you with mental torture. Who are you to proclaim and enforce God's will. Maybe you should read those texts you like to quote again. I certainly read them looking for answers. After all it is how I found God and he saved that deeply wounded teenager.

To every friend I told about my abuse one by one.... Not a one of you asked if I was ok or was there anything you could do to help. Not a one! Yours may not be a legal crime but it is certainly a crime against the heart. I was and have been there for each and every one of you. I wish you had been there for me.

To the men who expressed such hate and violence to make me hide myself as best I could, I charge you with crime against Humanity. I remember those who were beaten, the young man found dead in a ditch, the threats... I also charge you with criminal negligence for making a child grow up like that.

To the leaders of our world who so eloquently pass their laws that so casually dismiss my existence and criminalize my life I to charge you with crimes against Humanity.  And as a result of the things you stir up with such I charge you with assault, rape, murder...

To all the people who know better and do nothing to make such things stop I charge you with aiding and abetting a crime/criminal. I exist, and such I have a right to life just as much as anyone else.

You know this list could go on so much longer. Just my charges alone could keep lawyers busy for a very long time. Now add to it the list of every LGBT person, every minority, every victim. Society has failed. Only you can right it.

In all honesty I don't expect any of these charges to be judged or even pursued but I do expect justice. Each and every one of you on this list and those I didn't list owe your due. Whether it be penance, admitting your errors, or even just allowing me to live my life in peace I expect justice.

I don't want revenge and I don't want to force my will upon any of you. I of all people know the denial of ones free will. I of all people know the true abomination in this world. I don't want to preach and I don't want special rights. I want to live equally and freely, free from interference and meddling.

Maybe if good men who hold their ideals and values so high would come forward and practice what you teach maybe life can once again flourish.

To all those people of God who will surely respond to me with some scripture or another... I believe and follow God. I have thought about this one a lot. Have you ever considered we who are different are the witness' of your world? Do you truly follow his word?

Think about that one. You clearly state God has a will and all things are intentional. That means we have a role, it means we are part of God's plan. It means we have a path to the divine.

I am sorry if my words anger or rile some of you up. Those of you on my list may even contest my statements but they are from my heart and soul. They are as true as I can express. As hard as they may be to hear, think about how hard they were to experience.

Most of my life has been hurting, running, and hiding from one of you or others. No more! I am owed debts so great, by some, that can never be repayed. I don't want any of you hurt. There has been enough of that.

So now I have compared a small part of my crime list do we need to continue this discussion or can we finally talk about justice and finding solutions? I am here, I live, I feel, I express, and I hurt. Help me stop the crimes. No one should hurt.

We should love!

Love is Never Wrong

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